it would consist of 1-2 L’s (somethin light)

a drink or two (if you’d like)

but i really just want to have a conversation.

You said a sentence earlier and you were absolutlery right. I won’t try to explain too much becuase i don’t want to screw anything up any further than what they are because if im right about my conciouse and what it’s telling me.. then I know there is a big misunderstanding. I’m trying to not get my words crossed up because the last thing i need is to make anything worst. I apologize on the behalf of my mother and me for as far as i think i have an understanding, but to talk about it all is impossible because i know that i will get side tract but bare with me please because I belive this is another sign from some higher power that i need something in my life to change. So something about my life that needs to change is my ability to pay attention i look away allot but it’s not me ignoring you or just loosing interest it’s that i am always thinking multiple sentences and sometimes it takes my thoughts but i am listening i swear, and this is not the first time something like this has happened. The bottom line is I said something crazy to you and i heard myself say it but i didnt say anything because i thought i would be furthter making myself look stupid. I said “I liked The hospitality” the way that i said it, and the time it was said was complety wrong. I meant it in a way to say that i think you are nice people.. i really do aplogize if you think those things about me and if you don’t know what that means then lets just say i am seeing things the wrong way and it’s all a figment of my imagination but there is too much to mention so if im right just ask me anything openly and i will answer you truthfully, i have no reason to lie to you. im an open book, I really do enjoy talking to you.. I honestly do regard you as my aunt and brandon and keith my uncles and if i ever come off a certain way towards you i really don’t mean to i have always kept to myself from the time i could develope a memory so i apologize for being that way and i have honesly been trying to change it.. I have so much i want to tell you because i feel you have an opinion i would like to hear.

Sometimes i can’t sleep without you saying goodnight to me..